I came across a decluttering channel that explains exactly how I feel at times. I cannot post the link, but I can tell you this:
Remi Clog, the keepy-uppy method. I was trying to understand why my methods differed from most people’s. Things that should become easy and a no-brainer aren’t. Now I know why I do the things I do. I’m still working on the routine portion, but there are too many distractions. When I get started, I get pulled away for one reason or another, then forget or don’t have the motivation to restart.
I am a work of progress. I realize how far down the rabbit hole I fell. I had no idea that I had lost, except my reality felt more like a prison than anything welcoming.
I’m changing that, one layer at a time. I find healing in this. Now, I’m working on one space at a time. I realized when the problem started. I did well to hide it from most people, including myself. The year was 2008, the year we lost my mom and the year we lost our home within months of each other. I’ve had short intervals where my OCD was in overdrive—moments where nothing fell into place. That’s when the problem started.
I’m tired of turning the other cheek. Honestly, that year affected both of us more than I even realized. Since then, we’ve had several life-altering moments.
For the past few years, I’ve been working on the layers. I’ve made a lot of progress—A LOT of progress! There are a few people out there who are my role models. When I walk into their homes, I want that fantastic feeling. It doesn’t matter if the person’s room is Pinterest-perfect or slightly cluttered. It’s the feeling of the room that makes or breaks the room.
I’m not broken; it’s just that my reality is different from yours. I’m working on a simpler life, even with the small farm. Yes, there are two of us. We both have different work schedules. I try to finish most of my work for the day before he gets home. He’s worked long, hard hours in the sun. I’ve worked hard to make things more of a home that WE BOTH let slide for too long, with several medical issues fighting against me. Thanks for reading this far, and don’t forget to check out Remi Clog’s video.
